Many people speak of personal power but what is it exactly? How do you unlock it? These questions are asked countless times and it seems no-one and everyone has the answer. Personal power is having the courage to actually DO what is necessary. Most people pay lip service to their lives in general. How many promises that you have made to yourself have you actually kept? How many times have you let yourself down with no follow through? I know I have more times than I care to count.
Yes I know we all have our personal history, our stories that keep us stuck in the same pattern. Do you make excuses? Is there always a story that justifies your lack of action? In some cases we even go as far as placing the blame on others because taking a step towards personal power will affect them. We do all of this to avoid taking responsibility for our lives.
One of the things that strike me about personal power is that it is not as elusive as we would like to think. It is right there all the time, and when we step into it the outcome that we feared the most inevitably doesn't happen. Why is that? Because we project a future based on the imagined fear before we take action. Once you take action the circumstances of the situation change and all projections are transformed. Interesting…
The biggest block against personal power is personal history. This could be every time you were hurt, “taught” a lesson, guilt ridden, abandoned, shamed or blamed but it really boils down to one thing and one thing only… innocence lost. You can see how these feelings can leave you bitter, vengeful or obstinate. What can grow in soil that has been tilled with these feelings? Personal history gives your projections power and suppresses your personal power. It stops your ability to dream, take chances, open your heart and engage in your life.
I know that some will say that our experiences are what shape us, but they should not dictate what we do from this time forward. If we can use these experiences as guides to avoid further hurt and loss of innocence I am all for it but if they are kept alive solely for the reason of blocking our path and putting up a wall then they serve no purpose.
Here is a little exercise. Think of a time when you actually stepped into your power and dealt with a difficult situation. How did it make you feel? Did it really turn out as bad as you had thought? What did you gain? Now imagine that you did nothing…. Where would you be now?
I remember a particular ceremony during my warrior training that pushed so hard against my fear I nearly gave up. I was to find a place out in nature away from everyone, dig a hole, cover it with a tarp and sleep in my “grave” overnight. When I first heard about this ceremony I was excited and eager but as the time to do it drew closer I felt such a resistance that it was palpable. I made up excuse after excuse, I couldn't find a place, what about bears, spiders and snakes (none of which I am afraid of with the exception of bears) etc. etc.. I walked for six hours trying to find a spot only to return and angrily confront my teacher saying that I am not doing the ceremony. She just nodded, told me to work with the fear and walked away. I became infuriated, how could she have such disregard for my safety. However when I sat down with that fear I realized that being with myself with no distractions and only the work that had to be done, which was to look at my life, what I was, what I think of myself and what others may think of me should I die today, scared the crap out of me. Being that honest with me was beyond anything I had done before. Then it hit me, it isn't that I couldn't confront me, I couldn't confront my personal history, there was so much guilt, hurt and blame. So I stepped into my power, dug my hole, grabbed a blanket, warrior journal, pen and flashlight and pulled that tarp across my grave. I laughed at myself thinking “you made your grave now lie in it” and I started with the cleanup. That was the first (but not the last) time I truly let go of some of my personal history. Had I not completed this ceremony I would not be where I am today I would still be stuck with the fear of facing myself and the unknown.
For most people this may sound quite drastic. Of course you don’t need to do anything this extreme but do take steps towards erasing your personal history and letting it go. Find a practitioner that can guide you gently to facing your personal history so that you can be free.
So what does it take to step into your power? Erase your personal history and let it go. Find the courage to do what’s necessary. Once done you can be the sorcerer of your life, the one that weaves magic and new experiences powerful enough to propel you forward towards the life you want and need.
Love & Light