Last year two years I missed the Ceremonial Weeklong and I didn’t think anything of it until I went to this year’s weeklong. As soon as I stepped on the land I just knew it was time… time to clear, forgive and work on strengthening my connection to Spirit.
This year I wasn’t there to only work on myself but rather to lead others in their ceremony and I felt honoured to do so. It was such a journey to see people arriving feeling tired and torn apart by whatever they were struggling with, and then at the end of the week witness the transformation!
I did however find some time to do my own ceremony. I made an Inner Circle of Law Shield based on my values and principles. First I had to find those values and principles and I spent most of one day outside being chased by the Sun (as I moved to stay in the shade) reflecting and asking questions in each of the directions on the wheel. Once I had these I could make the shield. As I am not the greatest artist in the world I decided to use symbols to represent my Inner Circle. Boy was I nervous when I had to make that first mark on the leather! I bound thin branches together for the frame. I love the end result and it will hang on my wall. This shield is a reminder of my values and principles and looking at it makes me determined to uphold them, especially when I can feel myself slipping into my “little ego” and fear.
Healing is one of the most difficult and at the same time most fulfilling things you can do. It takes enormous courage, as the first step is to step away from fear and the patterns it keeps you in. It is customary for the people we support during the weeklong to give us something in return. We call it a “Heart Gift” and it can be anything. I want to share the heart gift one of the young men I supported gave me. He and I had our moments and some strong words were spoken because I would not let him slip into self-pity or sabotage himself. He was there to heal and on my watch I wasn’t going leave him unchallenged!
This poem he wrote for me… it is his gift:
Gaze of the Ancients
Joy like a Child
Mother o’ the Wild
Silver in Shadow
A Lunar Cocoon
Wolf Call o’ Wisdom
Light of the Moon
Written by: J