It is interesting how you find answers to questions in the most unlikely places. This past weekend I was a vendor at the Toronto Pagan Pride Day. Many people visited my table and asked questions about Paganism and the workshops I offer. Then someone asked me a very interesting question. “Why did you study Shamanism if you are a Pagan at heart?” I paused for a minute, and then a reply just poured from my lips. I studied Shamanism because I needed to heal.
So, why did I need to heal? As I spoke to this person I realized that I have always manifested successfully throughout my life. Except what I manifested was not always for my greater good. There were times when I got what I wanted and the victory felt hollow. When this happened I would simply go on to the next thing and not really think about it, but something was missing.
When I started practicing Paganism I found that my manifesting got even stronger. I would put in my intent and work at manifesting the dream. However there were times that the quote; “be careful what you wish for” was apt. Often I would be perplexed by what I received, it was what I intended but not exactly how I had envisioned it, I always felt a slight disappointment wanting more.
Then one night I had a prophetic dream and I was called to Shamanism. At the time I didn’t give it a second thought just asked around and found a teacher. That was it, I made the commitment to study and become a Shamanic Practitioner. Still there was no correlation between Shamanism and Paganism. I never questioned why.
And then this person asked me why and it became crystal clear. Healing helped me clean up my thoughts. I realized that the reason I wasn’t clearly manifesting what I intended before was because my thoughts weren’t clear, and when your thoughts aren’t clear your intending certainly can’t be.
So there I was at a Pagan Pride Day and suddenly it all came together and made perfect sense. The Goddess sent me to follow a healing path so that I could heal and change the way I thought, felt and saw the world. She then called me back when I was ready. Now the world is open to me, I have a better understanding of the unknown. I have done ceremonies that have shifted my perception of who I am and how I move through this world. Because my dreaming has strengthened my manifesting is more on point. I am so grateful for all the Magic that moves through my life and through me and for all the healing. I know the rest of my life is going to be the best of my life as I manifest all that resonates with my Path and my Soul.
It makes perfect sense to me to weave Paganism and Shamanism together in such a way that they support each other. To teach Magic that supports the Souls Journey and Healing that supports clear thoughts, dreaming and strong intending. Wow that is a potent path of Manifesting the life we deserve.
Life is a spiral not a straight line. We continually come back to the things we thought we understood so that we can get a deeper understanding…